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ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
[uno.] i can't help wondering when you were done with me. i mean, would it be easier this year if we pretended we didn't know each other?
[dos.] you'll never read this, but you make me melt. honestly, just the sight of you and i'm grinning like an idiot. knowing you're in my friends list on facebook makes me feel like the luckiest gal in the world. i mean, we've spoken plenty of times - you just didn't know it. if i did strike a conversation with you, i know you'd return it happily, but i don't want to drag you out. maybe one day i'll have the courage to really speak up.
[tres.] everything always has to be messed up, huh? you're one of the people i really click with, and it's obvious we were destined to be friends - imagine if we didn't meet like we did! - but the distance; fucking distance. you're so close, but still goddam far. one day, bbg, we'll get to chill! we'll make this happen.
[cuatro.] you're anything i could really want, but you don't exist. yet somehow, it's like you're slowly taking over my mind; i'm thinking like you would, talking like you would, thinking about the friends you would have, deciding what you would be wearing. it's incredibly insane how hard it is for me to think i created you.
[cinqo.] this is so unexpected. honestly, i never thought we'd be so close - and maybe on your end, we aren't - but trust me when i say you mean so much to me. i can talk to you whenever about whatever and you'll try to understand where i'm coming from. at the same time, you're not a bullshitter, so i don't have to worry. i'm grateful, even if you don't know.
[seis.] you're perfect in every way, and for once it doesn't grate on my nerves. you can do everything better than me, but the fact you aren't competing is comforting. you're loyal and funny, and soulful, and obviously born a billion years later. mature for your age is such an understatement when it comes to you. you're basically the word "wonder", personified.
[siete.] you're pathetic. your facade cracks like glass, in my eyes. all just a charade; do you ever wake up and wish your life wasn't just some pitiful little game? then again, you never were good at admitting defeat, were you?
[ocho.] i love you, i really do. i wish i could tell you that, but right now i'm so mixed up in the head, anything you would say in response would be enough to drive me over the edge. bear the suffering of my seemingly endless belittling, for now, because i promise the end is closer than you think.
[nueve.] i think you're adorable now, i actually do, but i won't be the first to make a move. i refuse to speak to you until it doesn't look like i'm trying - because it's obvious i don't accept friendships with people in our class easily. i just hope you secretly want to know me, too, but seeing you smiling at her... i'm right behind you and i hate the view! she's trying so bloody hard; what if i only want you because it would upset her?
[diez.] i see someone like you, and it just makes me kinda sad to know that i'll never have someone like you interested in someone like me.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.
ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
25.8.10 at 9:14 PM
[uno.] i can't help wondering when you were done with me. i mean, would it be easier this year if we pretended we didn't know each other?
[dos.] you'll never read this, but you make me melt. honestly, just the sight of you and i'm grinning like an idiot. knowing you're in my friends list on facebook makes me feel like the luckiest gal in the world. i mean, we've spoken plenty of times - you just didn't know it. if i did strike a conversation with you, i know you'd return it happily, but i don't want to drag you out. maybe one day i'll have the courage to really speak up.
[tres.] everything always has to be messed up, huh? you're one of the people i really click with, and it's obvious we were destined to be friends - imagine if we didn't meet like we did! - but the distance; fucking distance. you're so close, but still goddam far. one day, bbg, we'll get to chill! we'll make this happen.
[cuatro.] you're anything i could really want, but you don't exist. yet somehow, it's like you're slowly taking over my mind; i'm thinking like you would, talking like you would, thinking about the friends you would have, deciding what you would be wearing. it's incredibly insane how hard it is for me to think i created you.
[cinqo.] this is so unexpected. honestly, i never thought we'd be so close - and maybe on your end, we aren't - but trust me when i say you mean so much to me. i can talk to you whenever about whatever and you'll try to understand where i'm coming from. at the same time, you're not a bullshitter, so i don't have to worry. i'm grateful, even if you don't know.
[seis.] you're perfect in every way, and for once it doesn't grate on my nerves. you can do everything better than me, but the fact you aren't competing is comforting. you're loyal and funny, and soulful, and obviously born a billion years later. mature for your age is such an understatement when it comes to you. you're basically the word "wonder", personified.
[siete.] you're pathetic. your facade cracks like glass, in my eyes. all just a charade; do you ever wake up and wish your life wasn't just some pitiful little game? then again, you never were good at admitting defeat, were you?
[ocho.] i love you, i really do. i wish i could tell you that, but right now i'm so mixed up in the head, anything you would say in response would be enough to drive me over the edge. bear the suffering of my seemingly endless belittling, for now, because i promise the end is closer than you think.
[nueve.] i think you're adorable now, i actually do, but i won't be the first to make a move. i refuse to speak to you until it doesn't look like i'm trying - because it's obvious i don't accept friendships with people in our class easily. i just hope you secretly want to know me, too, but seeing you smiling at her... i'm right behind you and i hate the view! she's trying so bloody hard; what if i only want you because it would upset her?
[diez.] i see someone like you, and it just makes me kinda sad to know that i'll never have someone like you interested in someone like me.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.