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ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
there's a good reason for my lack of postage in the past few days, i swear. what's that reason?
i am happy.
no more depressing posts from me for a while; well, rants (like this post will be) but that's about it, as far as my unhappiness should go.
but istg, in just one week, i don't think i've ever been happier. i think it only took you that long to make so many of my wishes come true. you're absolutely amazing and now matter how cheesy this is, i don't know what i would do without you. omg, really. if you could see me read your texts, you'd be amazed at the shades of red i turn. you tell me such sweet things, i just want to smother you. i'm your first girlfriend, but you seem so experienced in making me blush furiously; you know all the right things to say. you tell me i'm a priority, that you really like me, that i'm in your heart, that you can't stand seeing me sad. i can't help but cry thinking of all the things you do for me. shit, i'm talking to you right now and i'm crying. i feel so guilty, grateful and i can't help thinking about what i did right, you know? but then you learn i'm crying and you spaz trying to make me better - why are so many people lonely?
-sixbillionsecrets.com
and then those people who have the nerve to tell me shit like i can do better - do they have a right mind?
xx
i've been shackled, bound to a weight, and thrown out to sea
and i'm struggling for breath
people are passing in their fancy vessels
and they do naught but look at me
gallivanting along in all the joy of the perfections of their lives
but i'm having a hard enough time keeping my head above water
every time i can pull myself enough to surface
and take a breath
those are the moments of pure, unbridled bliss
happiness that leaves me with hope that i can be rescued
that there's still some sort of chance for me to survive
but then i'm pulled down again by the leaden burden that tightens its visceral grip on my scrawny ankles
trying to sink me all the way down until i stop breathing completely
and all the hope runs dry
all these people cruising on by only taunt me
i'm too stubborn to ask them to send me a lifeline
if they wanted to save me, they would in a heartbeat
but i'm not worth anything to them;
they're much happier on their own
without me
besides, if i ask,
if i make this desperate plea,
it just wouldn't be sincere
and i'd be intruding once more
either way, i wouldn't be happy
either way, i'm not happy
wow life is so fabulous
i think about dying every single day now
ha.
funny.
wish i were joking.
leave any questions, comments or angry death threats here! http://formspring.me/uureeeka
i'm pretty insecure about my body. i really don't like my skin cuz it's really bumpy and stuff and ew i need some sort of exfoliating loofah or something i want smoother skin. i also don't like my stomach but i'm working on getting rid of the fat there at least in time for summer, even though it won't matter since i'll never get to leave my house anyways. i hate my smile with my teeth because it looks so fucking stupid and i'm not comfortable with my complexion, especially my cheeks, temples and forehead. there are a lot of insecurities yep.
i'm going to use real names so i swear to GOD if anyone exposes me lsjgklegjlkjlerjgklerjglerjlgjelrg
okay first on my mind is that adorable guy with the light brown jacket and brown hair and brown eyes who's apparently on the baseball team (or something, i creep). i see him everywhere and if ANYONE in this school is spider-man, it would be him. he looks the ideal underdog-cute-nerd. and he's totally nice seeming. lsjgslejgeljgerjglkrjg IDK WHAT HIS NAME IS BUT HIS BEST FRIEND IS LIKE PAUL SOMETHING AND I THINK HE'S IN GRADE 12 AND I HEARD SOMEONE CALL HIM "ARSON" ONCE SOOOO OKAY.
second is idk um patrick norek because honestly how can anyone not find him attractive really he's adorable aw aw aw for days
third on my mind would be kris/chris/something because he's like an oblivious (and quite possibly sadistic) golden retriever. omG he came to class today a minute before the announcements and he was like "better late than never, miss!" and steve told me this story about him randomly shouting, "I'M A FRAUD" or s/t to the supply teacher lol idk but yeah he's really really cute just slgjsklgjlgjlgjlerg
i still find munchkin attractive because IT'S NOT LIKE HE'LL SUDDENLY BECOME UNATTRACTIVE JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT DATING ANYMORE YOU KNOW but that doesn't mean i have any intention of getting back with him or anything i just miss him a LOT and wish we could still talk and stuff yup
lastly, um, my mum stopped at a red light and i saw this guy walking from erindale secondary school and he was really really really cute and we made eye contact and i just stared at him unfalteringly because i mean it's not like i'll never see him again
someone dig this up again in case we ever get married so i can be like "how ironic was that?! i thought i'd never see you again" i think that'd be cute ha ha ha i'm really lonely yup
completely and totally dysfunctional, so i really don't need to dedicate an entire blog post just to whine about it.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.
ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
june 1 2010
24.5.11 at 8:03 PM
there's a good reason for my lack of postage in the past few days, i swear. what's that reason?
i am happy.
no more depressing posts from me for a while; well, rants (like this post will be) but that's about it, as far as my unhappiness should go.
but istg, in just one week, i don't think i've ever been happier. i think it only took you that long to make so many of my wishes come true. you're absolutely amazing and now matter how cheesy this is, i don't know what i would do without you. omg, really. if you could see me read your texts, you'd be amazed at the shades of red i turn. you tell me such sweet things, i just want to smother you. i'm your first girlfriend, but you seem so experienced in making me blush furiously; you know all the right things to say. you tell me i'm a priority, that you really like me, that i'm in your heart, that you can't stand seeing me sad. i can't help but cry thinking of all the things you do for me. shit, i'm talking to you right now and i'm crying. i feel so guilty, grateful and i can't help thinking about what i did right, you know? but then you learn i'm crying and you spaz trying to make me better - why are so many people lonely?
"Honestly, I'm the lucky one. I thank God every day for the angel he sent me and I cry because I'm so in love."
-sixbillionsecrets.com
and then those people who have the nerve to tell me shit like i can do better - do they have a right mind?
xx
22.5.11 at 5:00 PM
i've been shackled, bound to a weight, and thrown out to sea
and i'm struggling for breath
people are passing in their fancy vessels
and they do naught but look at me
gallivanting along in all the joy of the perfections of their lives
but i'm having a hard enough time keeping my head above water
every time i can pull myself enough to surface
and take a breath
those are the moments of pure, unbridled bliss
happiness that leaves me with hope that i can be rescued
that there's still some sort of chance for me to survive
but then i'm pulled down again by the leaden burden that tightens its visceral grip on my scrawny ankles
trying to sink me all the way down until i stop breathing completely
and all the hope runs dry
all these people cruising on by only taunt me
i'm too stubborn to ask them to send me a lifeline
if they wanted to save me, they would in a heartbeat
but i'm not worth anything to them;
they're much happier on their own
without me
besides, if i ask,
if i make this desperate plea,
it just wouldn't be sincere
and i'd be intruding once more
either way, i wouldn't be happy
either way, i'm not happy
18.5.11 at 7:22 PM
17.5.11 at 4:42 PM
wow life is so fabulous
i think about dying every single day now
ha.
funny.
wish i were joking.
formspring.me
13.5.11 at 2:34 PM
leave any questions, comments or angry death threats here! http://formspring.me/uureeeka
writing; i'm actually rather proud of this.
10.5.11 at 10:15 PM
- NICHOLAS PETER GRAYSON
- ROLE: CAPRICORN, ABILITY OF MIND CONTROL.
- BASICALLY:
- twelve people represent the individual signs of the zodiac and have superpowers based on that. Nicholas is quiet, thoughtful and composed, but when AQUARIUS (superhuman intelligence) calls his dearest friend SCORPIO (sexual pheromone manipulation) a prostitute, he takes a stand.
Before he knew it, he had an empty mug in his hand and there was scalding hot chocolate everywhere. Fuck. Shit.
”Uh... I... I...” He stammered, piecing together what violent acts he had just done. ”I don’t have any sort of witty, heroic line to respond to your comment, but you’re a bitch and I hope that hot chocolate exfoliates your ugly pores, you fucking prick.”
Oddly enough, the most coherent sentence he’d probably mustered his entire life.
Wasted on Elizabeth Adamo, who didn’t even deserve divine breath or earth.
He didn’t see any personal connections – he couldn’t see the imminent irony. The irony thatNicholas was the trusty dog and, though often neglected and forgotten, he will do anything for someone he loves, or even vaguely cares for.
But, as they say, there is a very fine line between endearing selflessness and complete, utter stupidity.
- * all graphics are made by me. photos are copyright to the model. coding was all done by me. all writing is mine.
awesome.
XII - opinion about your body
5.5.11 at 7:19 PM
i'm pretty insecure about my body. i really don't like my skin cuz it's really bumpy and stuff and ew i need some sort of exfoliating loofah or something i want smoother skin. i also don't like my stomach but i'm working on getting rid of the fat there at least in time for summer, even though it won't matter since i'll never get to leave my house anyways. i hate my smile with my teeth because it looks so fucking stupid and i'm not comfortable with my complexion, especially my cheeks, temples and forehead. there are a lot of insecurities yep.
XII - five guys whom you find attractive
at 7:08 PM
i'm going to use real names so i swear to GOD if anyone exposes me lsjgklegjlkjlerjgklerjglerjlgjelrg
okay first on my mind is that adorable guy with the light brown jacket and brown hair and brown eyes who's apparently on the baseball team (or something, i creep). i see him everywhere and if ANYONE in this school is spider-man, it would be him. he looks the ideal underdog-cute-nerd. and he's totally nice seeming. lsjgslejgeljgerjglkrjg IDK WHAT HIS NAME IS BUT HIS BEST FRIEND IS LIKE PAUL SOMETHING AND I THINK HE'S IN GRADE 12 AND I HEARD SOMEONE CALL HIM "ARSON" ONCE SOOOO OKAY.
second is idk um patrick norek because honestly how can anyone not find him attractive really he's adorable aw aw aw for days
third on my mind would be kris/chris/something because he's like an oblivious (and quite possibly sadistic) golden retriever. omG he came to class today a minute before the announcements and he was like "better late than never, miss!" and steve told me this story about him randomly shouting, "I'M A FRAUD" or s/t to the supply teacher lol idk but yeah he's really really cute just slgjsklgjlgjlgjlerg
i still find munchkin attractive because IT'S NOT LIKE HE'LL SUDDENLY BECOME UNATTRACTIVE JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT DATING ANYMORE YOU KNOW but that doesn't mean i have any intention of getting back with him or anything i just miss him a LOT and wish we could still talk and stuff yup
lastly, um, my mum stopped at a red light and i saw this guy walking from erindale secondary school and he was really really really cute and we made eye contact and i just stared at him unfalteringly because i mean it's not like i'll never see him again
someone dig this up again in case we ever get married so i can be like "how ironic was that?! i thought i'd never see you again" i think that'd be cute ha ha ha i'm really lonely yup
XI - your family
at 7:04 PM
completely and totally dysfunctional, so i really don't need to dedicate an entire blog post just to whine about it.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.