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ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
honestly this is killing me now
my hands are shaking with butterflies and i want to throw up
i feel like i've lost someone so close to me
and i have
how could i possibly get over that and act like everything's fine?
i feel like shit.
back when we talked, way back in, like, may, the thought of liking you crossed my mind
but i totally brushed it off
like, no. i couldn't like you!
you were silly and sweet
and eventually i realized that's what i liked about you
and honestly i'm not going to lie -- i didn't want to like you because you were short
LMFAOLMFAO
but after denying it and contradicting myself for so long
i just can't get over you
i can't even try to
like even if i'm just sitting here with my eyes welling
i can't forget those stupid times that were so wonderful to me
and still are so wonderful
i walk home everyday down the same fucking path
remembering that time you biked me home and fell off twice
and actually asked me out on a date properly
aw, gosh.
for such an annoying little thing, you were my favourite thing about myself at a time
the fact i was so lucky to have someone like you
i'm so sorry i was selfish and couldn't see that maybe i wasn't the only one happy
i'm sorry for not trying hard enough, or rather trying too hard to not try enough
i honestly wish i hadn't worried so much
like, god, what gets me is how i still have that message saved
the one you sent me two days before you broke up with me
"what is it between us now? we like almost never talk anymore :/"
what would've happened if i had tried harder?
i swear we talked on the phone the day after that too, and it was an okay conversation
except obviously you didn't feel that way, since it didn't stop you from ending it
and i'm so sorry i'm only seeing how fucked up i was now
i was too much, i know
i'm mostly sorry that you're already over me, because it'll take me a long while before i can ever move on.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.
ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
i can't
23.9.10 at 12:51 PM
honestly this is killing me now
my hands are shaking with butterflies and i want to throw up
i feel like i've lost someone so close to me
and i have
how could i possibly get over that and act like everything's fine?
i feel like shit.
back when we talked, way back in, like, may, the thought of liking you crossed my mind
but i totally brushed it off
like, no. i couldn't like you!
you were silly and sweet
and eventually i realized that's what i liked about you
and honestly i'm not going to lie -- i didn't want to like you because you were short
LMFAOLMFAO
but after denying it and contradicting myself for so long
i just can't get over you
i can't even try to
like even if i'm just sitting here with my eyes welling
i can't forget those stupid times that were so wonderful to me
and still are so wonderful
i walk home everyday down the same fucking path
remembering that time you biked me home and fell off twice
and actually asked me out on a date properly
aw, gosh.
for such an annoying little thing, you were my favourite thing about myself at a time
the fact i was so lucky to have someone like you
i'm so sorry i was selfish and couldn't see that maybe i wasn't the only one happy
i'm sorry for not trying hard enough, or rather trying too hard to not try enough
i honestly wish i hadn't worried so much
like, god, what gets me is how i still have that message saved
the one you sent me two days before you broke up with me
"what is it between us now? we like almost never talk anymore :/"
what would've happened if i had tried harder?
i swear we talked on the phone the day after that too, and it was an okay conversation
except obviously you didn't feel that way, since it didn't stop you from ending it
and i'm so sorry i'm only seeing how fucked up i was now
i was too much, i know
i'm mostly sorry that you're already over me, because it'll take me a long while before i can ever move on.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.