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ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
monday: completely dead tired -- at midnight i was kinda bawling and then i went back online on msn and talked with yk until 3 and it was a pretty cool conversation and yeah it made me feel better but back at school i felt really awkward with him because uh yeah but then he made a bird out of paper and it made me smile because i am a faggot and yeah but i didn't get a hug or anything so fail day.
tuesday: science exam was easy so i finished pretty early and i guess julian was avoiding me or something because he was supposed to take nicole and me to streetsville but ditched us so nicole and i went to square one and bonded instead. like it was great man. i mean niggas on the bus are fucking loud as hell but once we were at the mall it was good. i bought a clearance v-neck and a large button at hot topic ($15 total) and then we went to h&m where nicole got a really beautiful nautical bag and i got my spiderman ring from the little boys' section ($4). then we got hungry so i bought myself a chicken souvlaki dinner ($9) and she got a crepe with mediterranean salad and yeah i actually finished everything which made me feel like i spent good money. after that, mac store where we took gay photos, then we trekked to the chapters across the street and looked at some comics and she persuaded me to buy a two-pack moleskine with her and yeah so i did and now i have a moleskine and she has two (had to owe her $7). in total, i spent $35 which was cool i guess. that night i complained to julian for ditching us and we had a short, serious conversation where he told me he didn't trust anyone at joan and was asking me why i was scared of him and idk i was pretty confused and evaded the question and he sent me "if you don't want to tell me then don't the worst it'll do is leave me without someone to talk to" and it really hurt, like, double-meaning. reminded me that he was leaving and i wasn't his friend yet idk. so i cried a little but i told him i didn't like where the conversation was going and he sent "oh well then let's change to a happy subject!" and totally changed the conversation.
wednesday: i guess julian knew i was sad or something because he approached me in my usual early-morning gang and put his hand near my face and i was like "wtf" and he said "don't your grandparents do this?" and i realized he wanted me to bless him or something so i declined and it broke the ice and i showed him my moleskine and he read through it with a smile and yeah then i did my maths exam. i then went to vickie's house with aimee and lippa and pros and cons emerged; pros: i am on speaking terms with aimee WHICH WAS SO GREAT OMG YES! cons: after aimee left i didn't see the point in staying anymore since lippa was being a premenstrual cunt and he and vickie were just on tumblr so i left and they didn't even notice w/e i don't care anymore. so yeah i got home and went on msn and ranted to howard and yeah. then i invited brett to hang out thursday.
thursday: the morning was awkward again cuz i was just reading and julian was just sitting with our group and yeah ok i had my english exam which was easy and then i regrouped with howard, vickie and andrea and we walked home and texted brett and meredith. meredith came while i was serving everyone food (i made, like, 4 nutella sandwiches, three soup noodles and a batch of cookies) and it was a little awkward but after meredith came everything was cool so we went upstairs and i tried to get my network drive to work but vickie messed it up LOL and then yeah brett came and heehee ok gingers so yeah we were just sitting on the same couch and everyone was laying on my day-bed-sofa thing and we watched the exorcist and it was hilarious and yeah then howard left, we finished the film and everyone else left but vickie had to change her pad so i told brett and andrea to wait for her at the park and then while vickie was putting her coat on my mum came home SO WE HAD A MAD DASH TO GET VICKIE INTO THE BACKYARD and we thought the coast was clear but vickie left her phone so that wasn't great but yeah then my mum called me down cuz she found vickie and i got in a little shit but i told my mum someone put vickie's phone in my bag so i called her over to return it and she got all happy because she thought she caught me but yeah it was alright. meredith left and my mum was over it. then i went on facebook chat and talked to brett and we reminisced and uh we went over how we have on-and-off feelings or something and ""flirted"" i guess but it made me blush like crazy and he told me he liked me and yeah idk now.
friday: i had my music exam and my dad dropped me off at school at 7:20 like a twat so i stood in the stairwell by the window and texted with brett and apparently he was thinking about what would happen if we "got together" and worried we'd be like him and bailey but i told him i'm not much like bailey (or at least in my opinion) and i wasn't asking him to ask me out, anyways, because my life's too... weird right now. and then i saw julian walk onto the second floor so i followed suit and he came to my locker and sat on his french horn beside me and we chatted and it was nice since idk i felt like i hadn't talked to him in a while. he told me about his cawthra audition, and we talked of zelda and final fantasy and those kinds of things, but then someone had to open the locker behind us so we got up and walked to his locker, i sat with my usual people and he went down to the music room. the music exam was cool and then afterwards i met with nicole, gave julian a goodbye hug and he was like "i still didn't take you to streetsville..." so i told him he'd take me one day. then i went downstairs. then i realized nobody was there but before i could save myself from awkward suicide, nicole and julian found me again and we stood by the window for a while and various people came by and then i saw jeremy and attacked him well and proper because i missed him and seeing him put me in a super mood it was great. then nicole, julian and i decided to go to erin mills, but we missed the first bus so we chilled at nicole's house and had pizza and stuff. when we got to the mall, i got myself a bubble tea and we went to the food court so julian could buy some a&w and while he was doing that nicole and i talked about brett and julian and she told me i shouldn't just like someone because i had a chance with them and that even if julian leaves i can still be friends with him or something and that was true. then we had some fun convos eating onion rings and the like and julian tried tapioca and took the last of my bubble tea :(. then we saw karen and melissa, said hi and bye and then went down to the photobooth but much to julian's good fortune, it was broken, so we went to chapters instead. i jacked julian's facebook, threw some zelda at him, and then we all sat down and watched julian read spanish poetry and shakespeare out loud with much passion. then we looked at moleskines and stuff and nicole bought eco headphones and a latte and we stood by the bus stop and talked and laughed and they mocked me for various things but it was fun. his bus came before us so he hugged us goodbye and left. nicole and i talked about her performances and stuff and then when we got on the bus she put in her new headphones but they kept popping apart and it was sad ):
then i got home and my mum offered to take me for a haircut so we did and the woman gave me a shit haircut and my mum was pissed and yeah. a+ end to my week.
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ericamay, 25may1995, single forever, devoted to peter pan
charlieissocoollike, doctor who, peter pan, you me at six, i see stars, andy oliver, devin oliver, ribbons, bows, drummers, bright colours, black and white contrast, people who smile a lot, laughing, beats, rhythms, being good at something, fireworks, writing, sketching, details, internet, photoshop, graphic design, coding, paint, crayons, paper, plain goldfish, the colours green and blue, prince phillip, princess aurora, tinkerbell, neverland, disneyland, disneyworld, crush the turtle, chemistry, storybook romance, arctic monkeys, britain, irish accents, every accent, scottish boys, skinny boys, pale boys, collarbones, freckles, gingers, photobooths, madina lake, billy idol, chocolate chip cookies, toffee, tiny marshmallows, hot cocoa, good memories, bloodrushes, laughing, singers, musicians, good headphones, punching the backs of car seats while listening to hardcore music in parking lots, hugs, kisses, winter, sweaters, hoodies, scarves, snowflakes, eyelashes, pretty eyes, dark hair, blonde hair, straight hair, wavy hair, offensive humours, people who don't take things seriously, heated debates, awkward moments, having private concerts home alone, red pandas, sharks, weasels, minxes, puppydogs, kittycats, post-it notes, caring reminders, strawberries, raspberries, william beckett, matt smith, karen gillan, david tennant, alex turner, joe brooks, noah and the whale, mumford and sons, los campesinos, french people, foreign languages, magic tricks, illusions, photographs, macros, doodling people i know, doodling people i wish i knew, pens that flow smoothly, shortbread cookies, tapping my feet, high fives, pokemon, laughing so hard i cry, being told people love me, winning, swedish fish, candies, neil patrick harris, nerimon, frezned, danisnotonfire, alexisonfire, billy talent, taking back sunday, john gomez, brian dales, alex pettyfer, logan lerman, tumblr, squareenix, old names, music class, good friends, late-night confessions, hanging out anywhere, eccentricity, spontaneous people, people with good memories, being unforgotten, lyricists, air heads, scissors, kicking, unicorns, rainbows, miss rainicorn, adventure time with finn and jake, flapjack, we came as romans, architects, joy division, two door cinema club, emma watson, george craig, emma watson and george craig together, the hoosiers, old photos, chalk drawing, graffiti, skateboarders, bmx riders, comic fanatics, superheros, guys, candy in tin cases, pastel stars, pointless wishing, sweet dreams, morning messages, text conversations, honey on toast, apple jelly, internet memes, advil, motion city soundtrack, vampire weekend, rolo tomassi, people named connor, people named sebastian, william, james, oliver, owen, eoin, alexander, joshua, andrew, aaron, christopher, jackson, hunter, and the like, the afterlife kids, downloading music, new downloads, video games, rpgs, shooter games, screaming, all forgotten, arcade fire, the asteroids galaxy tour, kick ass, aaron johnson, christopher mintz-plasse, devon werkshire, thick rimmed glasses, flickr, hipsters, cute kids, never growing up, beastie boys, we are the ocean, blink182, chameleon circuit, john green, hank green, paper towns, the perks of being a wallflower, lewis carroll, c.s. lewis, absolute brightness, the chronicles of narnia, lockets, trinkets, mimes, golden pocketwatches, nifty antiquities, halloween, sewing, the click five, parkway drive, cold war kids, obscurities, confessions, bookstores, candy stores, inside jokes, walls of wonder, being awesome, skins, kaya scodelario, luca pasqualino, jack o'connell, nicholas hoult, max hewer, hannah murray,
and a number of other things...
recap of my exam week
30.1.11 at 9:35 AM
monday: completely dead tired -- at midnight i was kinda bawling and then i went back online on msn and talked with yk until 3 and it was a pretty cool conversation and yeah it made me feel better but back at school i felt really awkward with him because uh yeah but then he made a bird out of paper and it made me smile because i am a faggot and yeah but i didn't get a hug or anything so fail day.
tuesday: science exam was easy so i finished pretty early and i guess julian was avoiding me or something because he was supposed to take nicole and me to streetsville but ditched us so nicole and i went to square one and bonded instead. like it was great man. i mean niggas on the bus are fucking loud as hell but once we were at the mall it was good. i bought a clearance v-neck and a large button at hot topic ($15 total) and then we went to h&m where nicole got a really beautiful nautical bag and i got my spiderman ring from the little boys' section ($4). then we got hungry so i bought myself a chicken souvlaki dinner ($9) and she got a crepe with mediterranean salad and yeah i actually finished everything which made me feel like i spent good money. after that, mac store where we took gay photos, then we trekked to the chapters across the street and looked at some comics and she persuaded me to buy a two-pack moleskine with her and yeah so i did and now i have a moleskine and she has two (had to owe her $7). in total, i spent $35 which was cool i guess. that night i complained to julian for ditching us and we had a short, serious conversation where he told me he didn't trust anyone at joan and was asking me why i was scared of him and idk i was pretty confused and evaded the question and he sent me "if you don't want to tell me then don't the worst it'll do is leave me without someone to talk to" and it really hurt, like, double-meaning. reminded me that he was leaving and i wasn't his friend yet idk. so i cried a little but i told him i didn't like where the conversation was going and he sent "oh well then let's change to a happy subject!" and totally changed the conversation.
wednesday: i guess julian knew i was sad or something because he approached me in my usual early-morning gang and put his hand near my face and i was like "wtf" and he said "don't your grandparents do this?" and i realized he wanted me to bless him or something so i declined and it broke the ice and i showed him my moleskine and he read through it with a smile and yeah then i did my maths exam. i then went to vickie's house with aimee and lippa and pros and cons emerged; pros: i am on speaking terms with aimee WHICH WAS SO GREAT OMG YES! cons: after aimee left i didn't see the point in staying anymore since lippa was being a premenstrual cunt and he and vickie were just on tumblr so i left and they didn't even notice w/e i don't care anymore. so yeah i got home and went on msn and ranted to howard and yeah. then i invited brett to hang out thursday.
thursday: the morning was awkward again cuz i was just reading and julian was just sitting with our group and yeah ok i had my english exam which was easy and then i regrouped with howard, vickie and andrea and we walked home and texted brett and meredith. meredith came while i was serving everyone food (i made, like, 4 nutella sandwiches, three soup noodles and a batch of cookies) and it was a little awkward but after meredith came everything was cool so we went upstairs and i tried to get my network drive to work but vickie messed it up LOL and then yeah brett came and heehee ok gingers so yeah we were just sitting on the same couch and everyone was laying on my day-bed-sofa thing and we watched the exorcist and it was hilarious and yeah then howard left, we finished the film and everyone else left but vickie had to change her pad so i told brett and andrea to wait for her at the park and then while vickie was putting her coat on my mum came home SO WE HAD A MAD DASH TO GET VICKIE INTO THE BACKYARD and we thought the coast was clear but vickie left her phone so that wasn't great but yeah then my mum called me down cuz she found vickie and i got in a little shit but i told my mum someone put vickie's phone in my bag so i called her over to return it and she got all happy because she thought she caught me but yeah it was alright. meredith left and my mum was over it. then i went on facebook chat and talked to brett and we reminisced and uh we went over how we have on-and-off feelings or something and ""flirted"" i guess but it made me blush like crazy and he told me he liked me and yeah idk now.
friday: i had my music exam and my dad dropped me off at school at 7:20 like a twat so i stood in the stairwell by the window and texted with brett and apparently he was thinking about what would happen if we "got together" and worried we'd be like him and bailey but i told him i'm not much like bailey (or at least in my opinion) and i wasn't asking him to ask me out, anyways, because my life's too... weird right now. and then i saw julian walk onto the second floor so i followed suit and he came to my locker and sat on his french horn beside me and we chatted and it was nice since idk i felt like i hadn't talked to him in a while. he told me about his cawthra audition, and we talked of zelda and final fantasy and those kinds of things, but then someone had to open the locker behind us so we got up and walked to his locker, i sat with my usual people and he went down to the music room. the music exam was cool and then afterwards i met with nicole, gave julian a goodbye hug and he was like "i still didn't take you to streetsville..." so i told him he'd take me one day. then i went downstairs. then i realized nobody was there but before i could save myself from awkward suicide, nicole and julian found me again and we stood by the window for a while and various people came by and then i saw jeremy and attacked him well and proper because i missed him and seeing him put me in a super mood it was great. then nicole, julian and i decided to go to erin mills, but we missed the first bus so we chilled at nicole's house and had pizza and stuff. when we got to the mall, i got myself a bubble tea and we went to the food court so julian could buy some a&w and while he was doing that nicole and i talked about brett and julian and she told me i shouldn't just like someone because i had a chance with them and that even if julian leaves i can still be friends with him or something and that was true. then we had some fun convos eating onion rings and the like and julian tried tapioca and took the last of my bubble tea :(. then we saw karen and melissa, said hi and bye and then went down to the photobooth but much to julian's good fortune, it was broken, so we went to chapters instead. i jacked julian's facebook, threw some zelda at him, and then we all sat down and watched julian read spanish poetry and shakespeare out loud with much passion. then we looked at moleskines and stuff and nicole bought eco headphones and a latte and we stood by the bus stop and talked and laughed and they mocked me for various things but it was fun. his bus came before us so he hugged us goodbye and left. nicole and i talked about her performances and stuff and then when we got on the bus she put in her new headphones but they kept popping apart and it was sad ):
then i got home and my mum offered to take me for a haircut so we did and the woman gave me a shit haircut and my mum was pissed and yeah. a+ end to my week.
this layout and the icon was made by chapstick with colors from colourlovers. do not remove/alter the credits section in any way, thank you.